Just a Little Bit

I like him just a little bit

And everytime he pushes it

With every smile brightly lit

And words like sugared candy

I'll let him stay a little time

And let his misty pupils shine

I'll let him tell me the world is mine

And that he will wrap it for me.

I like him just a little bit

Each word unspoken as we sit

And I'm wondering if I will fit

In the empty space beside him.

Sand

I can't believe

how dumb

I am

to mistake

him for

that other man

to think

I couldnt

when I can

to see him hold

with his

whole hand.

I find it strange

how fast

it goes

how black

the screen

I'll never know

the tears

like kites

look how high

they flow

how could I

swoop down

so very low?

I like to

have the

upper hand

to know which

platform that

I stand

to follow directions

the clouds

have planned

now I can't believe

how dumb

I am.

I can't believe

how dumb

I am

I've tried digging

my escape

deep through

the ground

but my shuffles

sweating,

blisters

on my hand

and in the waves

he still stands.

I dont see why

it's him

instead

but the need

inside has

to be fed

my blood

is poisoned

my mouth

full o'lead

nothing but

thoughts

inside my head

One thing

that I don't

understand

the lyric

dribbles from

the word of man

but I can't

think of

anything but sand

and how unbelievably

dumb I am.

Tell me when you've arrived

Tell me when you've arrived.
Everything will be alright.
Love will never seem so heavy.
Lies will never flow so smooth.

Meet me when you've arrive.
Everyone will be waiting.

Whisper to me when you've arrived.
Hold your suitcase to your ribs.
Every moment will seem too quiet.
Nobody will hear a thing.

Yell for me when you've arrived.
Out the window thrust wide open.
Ugly geese go squawking by.
Violins start sobbing.
Every creature waiting.

Ask for me when you've arrived.
Right behind you I'll be standing.
Rasping breathes like wisps of smoke.
It will sound like the whole world.
Varnished, cleaned and shining.
Everyone will be staring when you've arrived but,
Don't spare them any thought.

Silence

I look at her. And I'm worried.

Because I never say anything and she doesn't either.

My mouth is drooping off my face.

Dripping.

Slowly.

Slowly every silent second.

I smile at her. But I am still worried.

Because I never laugh at anything and she doesn't either.

My ears roaring like a train engine.

Shrieking. Yelling.

Yelling every giggle-less moment.

I nod at her. But I am still very worried.

Because I know I don't understand much and she doesn't either.

So my heart is pulsing through my head.

Thudding. Throbbing.

Throbbing every missunderstood minute.

My smile shows, though. Though I still remained, stabbed with worry.

Because I think I'm starting to realize.

I'm seeing. Looking. Learning

Learning that maybe all that's worthwhile

Are the words we do not say.

Sick

Smiles and nothing more

Splattered like blood on a frosting window.

Giggles like lead bullets

Thundering through the empty air.

Thank you's and you welcome's

lick and claw at the dusty table.

And am sick

Of the actions

Never taken.